Ok, so ever since posting my blog onto YouTube, I 've kept reminding myself that I need to do updates. The last post I had was sadly far to long ago, but I promise there are reasons.
The first and foremost thing that has prevented me from being in the mood to blog is that a close friend recently passed away, and to be honest I've noticed I'm not always in the mood to share alot of my feelings about smaller meaningless things, you know? I'm trying to be there for my BFF (whose brother was tragically taken) and also trying to re-evalutae my life so to speak. To look at those around me differently and to be a lot more thankful for everything I have, big or small. To say that it's changed me is an understatement. I still feel for the mourning family, and I see how broken they all are, but I know that it's also helped me to treasure my own family more. I've complained about my sibling, I've complained about my parents, and I know there have been times where I've just been a major grouch. But why? Because I'm a pessimist and in a bad mood? That's no excuse to constantly belittle what I should be lucky to have. In a way I feel like it's taken me far too long to notice that I have things really quite good. I have a great family that I get along with (most of the time), I have friends that I truly love, I have a pet who is my little fur baby, a job that I completely love, and an apartment that feels like my home. I'm secure in my life, and though it may not be perfect, it's mine. I don't want to regret anything that's led me to become who I am or where I am today.
Secondly, let's face it, everyone is busy at this time of year! I feel like ever since the middle of November I've been swimming just to keep my head afloat. On top of the experience I talk about above that happened, I also had my mother's, sister's and father's birthday in November, and immedietly after that it was time to start planning things happening for Christmas. Between finishing the birthdays, helping planning and attending my work Christmas party, and Christmas shopping I am spent. Don't get me wrong. I love Christmas, very very much so. But it's hard some years when everything seems to need doing. I don't doubt that everyone probably feels stressed, but I guess in a way I will be a little happy to have the refreshing beginning of the New Year start. And on top of all this I also managed to finally get my license at the ripe old age of 25, and am now starting to look at my first and biggest purchase, a car. So yes. Fingers crossed I will be posting VERY soon about something that is a new addition to my life.
And that, in a nutshell, has been my life for the past 2 months. Busy, eventful, but also very important to me. :)